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Riiiigghhhttt…..

Just rest your head on my chest

I like this picture a whole lot!

Risks

Dearest Today

Dearest Today

Not to be taken lightly.
Treading with caution.
Give me strength to make you beautiful.
For that when the day ends.
And all that I remember you by.
Has all become just a vision of beauty
And I will ensure that from you
Will become a better tomorrow.

Crying makes dreams possible

The following video is about a 3 year old girl who couldn’t get over her true love Justin Bieber:

Girl crying over Justin Bieber

Because of her devotion and love to such a young awesome superstar… , she was given a once in a lifetime chance to meet the teenage talent, and the result:

It just goes to show that crying somehow does get you what you want!

Positive Outlook

I’m 33, turning 34 this year and I am still going strong.  I still have goals and dreams that I wish to achieve and am no where near satisfied with my current progression.  I’ve had two operations so far, one that I am thankful for because without it I would be a goner.  I’ve gone through a rough childhood and teenage years that has left me with mental and physical scars.  I never knew about my Mother until I was twelve and find out the previous years was just a lie.  I’ve been teased and mistreated simply because of my appearance and my background.  I’ve survived a car accident after having been T-boned by a car traveling towards my side at 60  or so kilometers an hour.  I’ve  lost a friend who was with me the previous night and was forced between seeing my Mother off at the airport or be a pall bearer to someone I hope to see one day again.  I’ve made the wrong choices in careers and am just making up for it now.   I’ve been labeled a nobody and have had to prove myself over countless times.

The list can go on and though what I’ve recollected may sound doom and gloom, all it has done is shape me to who I am today.  It’s only because I have experienced loss and failure that I am able to succeed at anything that life has put me through.   The best and worst has yet to come, but the lousiest thing I can do is be cynical and count myself out.  I’ll do my best to look at the positives no matter what the situation.  I will always count on my peers, friends and loved ones for support and for them to bring out the best in me.

Conan O’Brien said this  “Nobody in life gets exactly what they thought they were going to get.  But if you work really hard and you’re kind, amazing things will happen.  I’m telling you.  Amazing things will happen.”

Remember that, because when you look at what lies ahead and think that you’re about to experience nothing but shit, then that’s what you are exactly going to get.  So take a deep breath and cheer up because we only get one chance in this life and you just have to make the most of it.

Flashback Fridays

2am

Her: Who do you think is more awesome, me or him?
Me: What??
Her: You have to answer the question…
Me: I don’t believe you’re asking me this question at 2 o’clock in the morning!!!

Who the hell asks a question ever so random at that time of the morning???

Random questions

So my flatmate has me doing these random questions and it’s a good exercise into recollecting memories. If anyone is interested in following myself or my flatmate, you can simply follow this link http://formspring.me/Vudison

I clicked on asking myself a random question and I ended up with this one: What was the happiest moment in your life?

There’s too many to mention, I have a lot of happy moments and I cherish each one, there’s the time where you kiss the woman you love and you feel safe, or probably a funny story that I remember where one day when I was a young teen.  Two of my friends and myself were riding our bikes back from the shop and encountered a young kid who was just walking home.  My friends being the young fools that they were, decided to pick a fight with him just to scare him and mess with his head.  I got involved and told them to leave the kid alone, since he was young and just minding his own business.  Besides pretty stupid for two older teens to be picking on someone who is smaller and younger then the both of them.  Anyways some hours passed on and a family rocked up to my house while my family and I were having a BBQ.  I instantly saw the young kid and knew that it was his family, the father stepped forward and shook my hand.  In front of my family, he commended me on my actions and said that it was a noble thing to do.   I’m not sure how he worked out where I live but managed to find me somehow.

Anyways with good praises and a smile from my mother, I did the stupidest thing and that was to cry, cause I didn’t even know how to react to such praises.  I hardly got praises as a kid and that definitely was one that would shape my respect for people regardless of who they are.  Kind of reminds me the time I got bullied at school and stood up to him by beating him up in a fit of rage.  My friends all cheered me on and gathered around me for my victory but the thing they got to witness was me crying at my own feat …..  Talk about fail on a emotional win level.

Join me in the random chat if anyone has time and ask me some questions and I’ll ask some back

What a toothpick I was back then ugh…

Leap of Faith

I have always wanted to make sure that no matter what I do, the outcome is calculated and definite.  I think that’s the general rule with everyone but I hate to make a decision that has no definite outcome or just a mystery.  Take for example, when I was forced to move out when things were very tough at home 14 years or so ago, I had to make sure that I had a place to stay, an income to support myself and that I will be alright.  Things have been great and because of my choice to move out, I haven’t looked back since and enjoyed everything that I have lived through.  However things could’ve turned out much differently, if I just rushed the whole process and didn’t think things through, nothing like looking the fool when you move out then returning a few months later because of your own stupidity.

There’s only been a few times though when I have actually have stepped out of my comfort zone and stopped thinking so much ( I hate it when I do that).  Like the time where I had decided to switch from hospitality to doing retail then IT.  Bizarre career moves at first glance and computer gaming had something to do with it but hey without that whole experience, I wouldn’t have met all the wonderful people around the world and this country.  Then there was the time where I believed in an Angel and followed that all the way to New York, that was a memorable journey if I may say so myself.

Anyways I have waited patiently for this moment, but I got some good news recently and it involves in a promotion.  It’s not entirely a promotion but I accepted a job at a level in the public service that I’ve always wanted and the pay suits me just fine.  I am thankful and humble for the opportunity, and really do hope that I can do my best and prove my worth to the new team that I will spend the next four months with.  However there are  some doubts that has been raised with this offer and that it’s a non-ongoing contract, meaning that come the end of June, I may find myself unemployed and without a job.  I did have a choice and that was to stay with the company that I am currently employed to and they’ll contract me out for that duration (with same pay and benefits).   At least by contract’s end, I would have a job but I would be shifted programs and I may not even like the job that I would assigned to.

I had to think long and hard about this decision, but decided that it was time that I took a leap of faith and trusted myself for once.  That’s half the problem with anything I do really,  I doubt myself and think too much that I turn down an opportunity.   It’s like shooting myself in the foot because I’m so damn scared of what lies ahead.  It doesn’t help that the people around me push me and even praise me on my work and who I am, but yet I still hold myself back.

Kind of reminds me of the time I was going out with a special someone, but I let doubts and worries creep into my head, even possibly listening to other people who tell you that it won’t work out and what not.   Stupid actions led to stupid decisions and I regret it, but I have to move on and learn from my mistakes.  Hence why I have to do this and just take a leap of faith.  No more safe bets or worrying, it’s really time that I back myself up and trust in myself.  Otherwise I am just going to be a child who is unable to make his own decisions and rely on others to make it for him.