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Did I tell you the story about buses and trains?  Well I walked under a bus, got hit by a train, keep falling in love, which is kind of the same.  I’ve sunk out at sea, crashed my car and went insane.  The funny thing is that it felt so good that I want to do it again.

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Lyrics to Lady (Remix) :
(feat. AZ)

[Hook:]
You’re my lady [x4]

Don’t think I don’t see them looking at you
All of them wishing they could have you
And as a matter of fact, uh
A bunch of them are itchin’ for you to scratch ‘em
I’m tiried of hiding what we feel
I’m trying to come with the real
And I’m gonna make it known
Cause I want them to know

[Hook]

You’re my little baby (baby) my darling baby (baby)
I swear you’re the talk of the town
and everybody wants to know what’s going down
Babe, I know they’ve seen us before
Maybe at the liquor store, or maybe at the health food stand
They don’t know that I’m your man

[Hook]

I can tell they’re looking at us
I pick you up everyday from your job
And everyguy in the parking lot wants to rob me of my girl
And my heart and soul, and everybody wants to treat me so cold
But I know I love you and you love me
There’s no other lover for you or me

[AZ:]
Yeah, yo though I only paid you occasional
I’m raising you up then those ivading you
Pushing up persuading you with conversation
That consist of solicitation false information
See I deal with sophistication, shimp and lobster style
You see me dressed up proper in crocodile
Crock awhile I leave alone, unofficial is not your style
My innger vision is this plush life living, me escaping the inner city
prision
Raping our women is causing havoc
Breaking bonds that birth marriage this Earth was once lavish
Now it’s ursed left for a savage
Mind, I tech mine, respect mine, let’s connect projects
Lex wet sex and wine all the time, the Firm staff on the climb
Nas the trio, D’Angelo and Primo
You know how we go
Firm affiliation 9-6

In the past, I use to have a very relaxed policy about how my girlfriends interacted with guys.  It was so pretty much non-existent, but then a turn of events would lead me to change that policy, simply because I had lost a few of them to guys who I thought were friends or because I was just too carefree and didn’t seem to care.    My last relationship was a test in terms of that policy, since I did mind who she was hanging out with back then but was powerless to say anything.  Not to mention we were just getting to know each other, and there was some friends who I had yet to meet especially the ones who came into town and stayed with her.  Looking back on things, I don’t know if it would’ve helped with me being upfront and telling her what was on my mind since we were after all long distance.

Fast forward to this present day and age, where I find myself once again in a long distance relationship with someone I adore and care for very much.  The situation is almost similiar to the last but I believe that we’re off to a good start and a lot of that has to do with how we talk and express ourselves.  Although there is one situation that has already come up and has tested my policy of interaction with guys.  Not that I mind or am jealous, it’s more so that I don’t trust the person and think he’s just clearly causing troubles.  If the roles were switched around and he was in my position, I am fairly certain that he would not agree to me talking to the partner and would surely kick up a hissy fit.

The main thing though is that I want to say I appreciate her being truthful with me and telling me everything that does go on in this journey that we are undertaking together.  If we weren’t able to trust each other and be honest then what’s the point of being together and just wasting each others time?  There’s still a long way to go yet but I am prepared and have learnt all my lessons from the past to be where I am now, and that’s happy at last.  Meanwhile though to the dude who keeps crashing this party, I only have one appropriate response.

At this stage, I can say that this has been a whole new experience and because of it, I feel so out of place and so damn lost at times.  It’s pretty much come to the point of where you got to give me learner’s license plates and just stick it to my forehead.  Sometimes the things I say, how I react, what I do, can just be a little too much, and maybe it’s because I’m not thinking right and it’s just been a long time since my head got into the groove of things and into the mentality of it all.

I remembered that at this early stage things should be much smoother then what it is and the little mishaps that occur ( maybe misunderstandings is the correct word), should come at a later stage.  Anyways all I can do is just learn from each little experience and see what happens, because to tell you the truth, I’m totally lost when these things occur, and I don’t want them to.

I’ll be happy when things just get better and I’ll take this damn L plate off me…..

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It’s all because of you
I’m never sad and blue
You’ve brightened up my days
In your own special way
Whenever you’re around
I’m never feeling down
You are my trusted friend
On you I can depend

You take me away
From the pain
And you bring me paradise
And when there were cloudy
Days you brought sunshine in my life
It never occurred
To me the first time I saw your face
I would fall so deep in love
That your love cant be replaced

Recently I decided to write down my relationship history and just shared it with a certain someone, since she was all too curious and wanted to know their names, and their stories with it.  Having spent possibly 2-3 hours on it, trying to recollect each relationship and reminisce what was once relevant, I wondered if this time around, would I remember all my lessons learnt and actually this current relationship count.  Because the problem is, regardless of how many times I’ve been with someone, the one thing that they all had in common was that it never lasted no more then 9 months or less.  My last one was probably the closest that I can recall having strong feelingsand actually managed to do things that were out of my norm, like actually going somewhere and doing things together.  As we all know though, things just were not meant to be and once again I find myself on the road alone.

Now though I get the chance to do it all over again, the circumstances are similiar (long distance here we go again!!), but with someone that I’ve known for some time and it feels good to be with her.  I’m scared though because what if the same things occur and I find myself getting lost in my own emotions.  I don’t want to drown myself with fear and worries when it’s still early days.  I’m liking how I feel and the time that I get to spend with her is more then amazing to me.

So for now, just venture on the path that I am travelling on and see what lies ahead, otherwise, the minute I start tripping, I’m not going to be able to enjoy this moment.

Morning Tea has now started becoming a tradition at my work place.  It’s come to the point where next month, rather then just my team which consists of 7 people, it will spread to the entire team of 27.  What was a mini project with a fruit and cheese platter which next month spread to a big lunch banquet and I’ve been delegated to organise the whole food fest since I’ve been doing quite well might I add for our desktop team.  It’s nice to watch something that was just small become bigger on a larger scale and to have the people that you work with, appreciate the effort and in turn appreciate each other’s effort and contribution to the work program.

I’ve already started planning and it’ll basically consist of Turkish pides, salads, fruit platters and finally the Christmas cake which I hope will blow everyone’s mind away. This year has been great and it’s been all about change and adapting.  A big part of me being happy has come from my current work place and it’s much more better that I feel more at home and able to do things like this, to show my appreciation.  Thank you very much 2008 thus far !

A funny but awkward moment occured today, and it makes me giggle at the thought of it.  I wanted to show off my bag of jelly beans today to my co worker since a friend of mine had sent them to me straight from the US of A.  It had many different flavours and of course the bag was huge, so no sooner did I get into work that I was showing her my bag of goodies.  This is how the conversation went down:

Ms S: Oh dude, that package is like huge, I can’t believe how big it is
Me: Yeah I know and look how much it has and how colourful it is
Ms S: Hmm I think I’m gonna have a look and see what you’ve got

From that dialogue, there was nothing so much wrong with it, but picture a guy who was sitting behind us and the angle he was looking at us from.  His view was that I was standing up and while my co worker had half her body covered.  Meaning that from where he stood and what he was hearing, Ms S was playing around with my “package”, no sooner did he hear this that he had to explain this to us.  To which we realised the extent of our conversation and how wrong it looked, quite hilarious I might add but definitely a embarrasing moment.  If this didn’t make sense then screw it, I’ll just stick with you had to be there to understand.

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 Vu Quang Nguyen has changed his status to “in a relationship”

The minute someone (let’s say me in this case) announces anything and changes their status to being in a relationship, you’ve basically just started the rumour mill and everyone now who is connected to you, wants to know what, when, where, and how??  Then of course all my chat programs that I have installed like MSN, GMail chat and more, go off, and everyone now wants first hand accounts of this relationship.  All I can say for now is that I am loving this feeling inside of me, I’m not sure of what lies ahead, but I do promise that I will learn from my past mistakes and just think more with my head rather then you know where.