Familiar Road

Recently I decided to write down my relationship history and just shared it with a certain someone, since she was all too curious and wanted to know their names, and their stories with it.  Having spent possibly 2-3 hours on it, trying to recollect each relationship and reminisce what was once relevant, I wondered if this time around, would I remember all my lessons learnt and actually this current relationship count.  Because the problem is, regardless of how many times I’ve been with someone, the one thing that they all had in common was that it never lasted no more then 9 months or less.  My last one was probably the closest that I can recall having strong feelingsand actually managed to do things that were out of my norm, like actually going somewhere and doing things together.  As we all know though, things just were not meant to be and once again I find myself on the road alone.

Now though I get the chance to do it all over again, the circumstances are similiar (long distance here we go again!!), but with someone that I’ve known for some time and it feels good to be with her.  I’m scared though because what if the same things occur and I find myself getting lost in my own emotions.  I don’t want to drown myself with fear and worries when it’s still early days.  I’m liking how I feel and the time that I get to spend with her is more then amazing to me.

So for now, just venture on the path that I am travelling on and see what lies ahead, otherwise, the minute I start tripping, I’m not going to be able to enjoy this moment.