My year in review part 1

The year 2009 came in and I was bracing up for what would’ve been a regular year but nope not I had some rough rides along the way but I’m still here and breathing, which is what is most important, otherwise hmm yeah, this blog wouldn’t get updated like right now!!!

I came into last year attached to a special someone and this time right now I should be with her coasting around Australia. But some things you can never plan and here I am by myself, carrying on life’s greatest journey. It was a long time coming and I never expected to be with her but somehow lady luck was kind enough. Funnily enough it was during NYE a year ago and we were talking, texting and I was waiting for her call to let me know that she got home safe. Everything was going smoothly or so I thought, but then as the days turned to weeks and they turned to months, I just couldn’t cope with it anymore and it just was too much without having her next to me. They say that when someone means so much to you, distance shouldn’t matter but the problem is that it does. Nothing can ever beat the affection, the embrace and touch of someone you do really love. Even with the internet and you have the means of being able to talk and see each other via web cam, it just is not enough.

So I did what I had to do and end it for both our sakes, I could see that I was hurting her even though it was not intentional. I felt that I was just becoming distant and somewhat cold through our every day interactions. It breaks my heart every time I hear her speak and there is just a hint of sadness for it, I always wanted her happiness and nothing more because to me it fuels my happiness and it just makes me feel whole. For what it’s worth though, she was the best that I ever had and she was that all I ever wanted, funny as it coincides with the song that I am bumping a lot to.