Broken pieces

Well, I’m not really in pieces, I’m actually doing great. What started out with such promise and seemed to feel so right, just turned out to be nothing more then just an illusion. It was a fast month and I really couldn’t be bothered any more with the lies, deceits and excuses. I knew something was up, the minute words that sprouted from her mouth seemed so forced and fake. Words such as “you’re like a gift to me” “I love you” and even “you’re the closest thing to me”. Which is why it came to no surprise when I found her with another man at 9pm at a mall. I wasn’t shocked, angry or hurt, truth was that I was expecting it, and it didn’t help that she gave me the look of death, and my response was a eager smile and wave.

I didn’t bother calling her or ask for an explanation, instead two hours later she called me and sobbed uncontrollably. I had no sympathy or try and understand where she was coming from. The conclusion was that I gave her my trust, friendship and support but she chose something else (her ex boyfriend it turns out), she flushed it all away the minute I saw him and her together holding hands.

Probably the best thing about this, is that I am trusting my gut instinct, and the experiences before me have made me a lot more cautious and ready for what may come. In the meantime, I still talk to her here and there and I still have a feeling that whatever she says or does is just nothing but lies and deceit. I wish her well in the course of life and hope that she someday changes her ways and stops being a fake.