Squeaks did point that out, that a lot of the girls that I do end up having a relationship with, seem to have some sort of personal issues and it’s me that normally comes in and puts on the cape to try and save the day. This, however, didn’t need any heroic acts or having to provide a shoulder to cry on.  She has been around for a while but there’s been some misunderstandings on both side, and instigated from people that I should have never listened to.  Hence why I never took interest or looked at her in that way.  I love things that happen unexpectedly and it’s a nice surprise to have it where it is now.
You see two years ago, I was asked by a lot of people to consider meeting her and take her out to get to know her better.  There was a dilemma though because at that same time, my heart belonged to someone else and I never thought of doing that girl wrong.  So I abandoned all thoughts of this girl and focused on the one who I was chasing for a long, long time.  I’m sure anyone who has been chasing for something so long and finally got it, would not give it up so easily, even if the girl was smack bang in front of you.

So now we’re here in the present day, things didn’t exactly work out with the lady back then and I’m sure she knows why.  I would love to have written a more detailed blog post on why I had to let go and believe me, I’ve come very close to doing it.  However, because of the great circle of friends that I am surrounded by, they prevented me from doing it, saying that I would only jeopardise everything and be a total home wrecker.

Getting back on track now, it was just one fateful night where I was with Mish and Chuey for the Nara Festival and chose to go to the Moon festival afterward.  It was there that I saw her and we talked for a bit, and I decided that I would give her a lift home since it’d be unfair for a family friend to go way down south then back home in the north side.  From there, we met up regularly and talked.  The cherry on the cake was the week of my birthday where all things fell into place and I knew then, that she would be my lady.

I think that’s the general spill of it all, and this blog was for someone who felt that they missed out and wondered what the hell was happening.  Doesn’t help that I don’t talk much on MSN and anyone messaging me, will get a response of  “Chillin’ with wifey brb”.  Now that you know, aren’t you happy?? YAY!!!

No flashback fridays for today, instead it’ll just be a song that I been playing over and over again and no doubt Mish is slowly getting sick of it.

However I can’t help but feel that this is it, and that when I’m with her, it’s a done deal.  What makes me freak out a little is that, I never anticipated her to be my one and only.  Out of nowhere though, there she was, after 8 years, it just happened out of the blue.  Whatever happens from here onwards, I don’t mind as long as I have her by my side!!

Though she’s so far away
It just keeps getting stronger
every day
and even now she’s gone
I’m still holding on

So tell me where do I start
’cause it’s breaking my heart
Don’t wanna let her go

Terry’s Diary

Well, I’m not really in pieces, I’m actually doing great. What started out with such promise and seemed to feel so right, just turned out to be nothing more then just an illusion. It was a fast month and I really couldn’t be bothered any more with the lies, deceits and excuses. I knew something was up, the minute words that sprouted from her mouth seemed so forced and fake. Words such as “you’re like a gift to me” “I love you” and even “you’re the closest thing to me”. Which is why it came to no surprise when I found her with another man at 9pm at a mall. I wasn’t shocked, angry or hurt, truth was that I was expecting it, and it didn’t help that she gave me the look of death, and my response was a eager smile and wave.

I didn’t bother calling her or ask for an explanation, instead two hours later she called me and sobbed uncontrollably. I had no sympathy or try and understand where she was coming from. The conclusion was that I gave her my trust, friendship and support but she chose something else (her ex boyfriend it turns out), she flushed it all away the minute I saw him and her together holding hands.

Probably the best thing about this, is that I am trusting my gut instinct, and the experiences before me have made me a lot more cautious and ready for what may come. In the meantime, I still talk to her here and there and I still have a feeling that whatever she says or does is just nothing but lies and deceit. I wish her well in the course of life and hope that she someday changes her ways and stops being a fake.

I like this picture a whole lot!

I once call this friend a banana.  What do I mean by banana?  Oh you know someone who is yellow on the outside but deep down inside is white!  Oh yeah racial stereotyping …